From My Inner Library
A Letter at the Beginning of a New Chapter
Some writings don’t belong to a single moment.
They belong to a lifetime.
This piece marks the beginning of a new chapter in how I share my work — not as finished products or polished teachings, but as lived reflections from decades on the yogic, Ayurvedic, artistic, and human path. What follows is a personal letter, written slowly and honestly, and an invitation into a long-term journey I call Living Sadhana: From My Inner Library.
Dear reader,
Today I want to share a very personal and deeply purposeful article with you.
It is a letter about change — about the coming year, about a shift in focus in my life and work, and about something I have been carrying quietly for a long time that is now ready to be shared.
If you know me, if you’ve been reading my newsletters, practicing with me, or working with me as a student or client, then you already know parts of my story: my life, my path, my work, and what I care about deeply. You know that my work has always been about supporting physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual health — and that these inner forms of wealth often become the foundation for a richer life overall, including our relationships, our work, and yes, even our material and financial wellbeing.
My life has unfolded in chapters.
There was Verena 0.1 — the first twenty-five years — the artist, the dancer, the performer on the world stage.
Then Verena 0.2 — the healer, the yogi, the seeker — years shaped by deep practice, ashram life, Ayurveda, meditation, and long journeys through India and inner worlds alike.
Then Verena 0.3 — the Mama Yogi, wife, coach, and guide — the last fifteen years of holding space for family life, students, clients, and community, while integrating spiritual practice into the reality of being a householder, and a working mother.
And now, quietly but unmistakably, Verena 0.4 has been preparing herself.
As my children grow more independent, and as my husband continues to build his own legacy, something in me is shifting too. Not only because I am approaching a round birthday — half a century in this body and in this lifetime — but because a new focus is asking to come forward.
The focus of the teacher, writer, author, and mentor.
For those who feel called to walk a clear and conscious path toward physical health, mental clarity, emotional maturity, and spiritual depth — not instead of material success, but beyond it.
Because financial and material stability matter.
They are necessary.
They are not, however, the final destination.
Some of you may know that I have been writing for a long time.
For more than ten years, I have been working on book manuscripts. There are, quite literally, several finished and half-finished books resting quietly on my computer and on old hard drives — writings from my years in yogic ashrams in California, from traveling through India, and from what I learned through lived experience on the yogic, Ayurvedic, and meditative path.
After a long pause in writing, motherhood and life asked for my full attention.
Later, I began the Mama Wonderful series — books and teachings about integrating yoga, meditation, Ayurveda, and modern coaching into the reality of busy family and professional lives. Alongside that, I continued to write more personal material — stories about the spiritual search, about love, relationships, disillusionment, growth, and the many ways life teaches us through both grace and pain.
A few years ago, I invested more than two years working closely with a well-known yoga book editor and author in the United States. Together, we edited a full manuscript and started to prepared a detailed book proposal. After nearly three years of work, time, energy, and financial investment, the response was:
The book is good. The idea is strong.
But we cannot market it — because you don’t have enough followers on social media or a large email list.
To be honest, that moment shattered something in me.
It was a dream I haven’t fully recovered from until now.
And yet — life has its own intelligence.
Over the past months, through a series of events, encounters, and conversations that I don’t believe were coincidences, a very clear message arrived:
All this wisdom, experience, and storytelling is not meant to stay hidden on hard drives and forgotten memory sticks. It wants to be shared — slowly, honestly, and directly — with people like you who can draw insight, comfort, and clarity from it for your own live.
Sharing these stories and teachings is not only about offering something to you — even if it’s just four or five minutes of reading that bring perspective or reassurance into your day. It is also about staying sane and joyful myself.
I love to write.
I love to teach.
I love to share the wisdom, that comes from life itself.
And I have entered a season of life where holding back no longer makes sense. Time feels precious now — not in a fearful way, but in a clarifying one. I want to use it meaningfully, so that when this life comes to an end, my soul can rest in knowing: I have done what I came here to do.
So here is the plan.
Over the coming weeks, months, and years, I will begin sharing excerpts from my inner library — passages from books I have written, from notebooks, teachings, and reflections shaped by decades of practice, travel, love, loss, and learning.
I will share them:
- as blog posts
- as newsletters
- and as spoken reflections on YouTube
Not as finished, polished products — but as living letters from my life.
Stories from a journey where my soul woke up, grew, broke open, loved deeply, lost deeply, and learned again and again how to begin anew.
What You Might Take With You
As we begin this shared journey, you might gently reflect on these questions:
- What experiences in your life have shaped you in ways you can’t undo — and how are they asking to be lived now?
- Where are you holding something meaningful inside that hasn’t yet found its place in your everyday life?
- What practices, rituals, or moments of stillness help you stay connected to who you really are — especially during times of change?
What Comes Next
In the coming weeks, I will begin sharing the first excerpts from my inner library — one story, one reflection, one lived teaching at a time.
Thank you for being here.
Thank you for listening.
And thank you for walking this path with me.
This letter is the starting point.
From here, the journey continues — through stories, reflections, and lived wisdom drawn from different seasons of my life and practice. You are welcome to read along, return whenever it feels right, or follow the reflections through the newsletter or spoken recordings on YouTube.
Take what nourishes you.
Leave the rest.
Thank you for your presence here.
If you feel called, I invite you to come along on this journey — a journey of life, love, yoga, and truth — and to step with me into Living Sadhana: From My Inner Library.
With gratitude, honesty, and an open heart,
Om
Verena Gayatri Primus
About the Author
Verena Gayatri Primus is an Ayurvedic specialist, yoga teacher, writer, and mentor with over three decades of lived experience on the yogic and human path. A former professional dancer, she has spent many years studying and practicing yoga, Ayurveda, and meditation, including time in ashrams and extended journeys through India.
Through her work, Verena supports people in cultivating physical health, mental clarity, emotional maturity, and spiritual depth — not as an escape from life, but as a way to live it more fully. From My Inner Library is a space where she shares lived reflections, stories, and teachings shaped by practice, love, loss, and renewal.
You can explore more writings, reflections, and resources at
www.verenaprimus.com
If this piece resonated with you, you’re welcome to explore the blog, subscribe to the newsletter, or listen to the spoken reflections on YouTube.
